rozzeee's diary

rozzeee's Diaryland Diary

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moved.

hey people i decided to get pro and use blogspot. i know blogspot is EEEAAAASSSYYY PPPEEEAAAASSSYYYY but im computer illiterate so this is a giant step for me. from now updates will be there.

http://rozzeee.blogspot.com/

seeya.

11:06 p.m. - 2006-12-22

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as ive said
new song.
one of my favourites.
honestly
this is sexy.
to me.

4:17 a.m. - 2006-12-19

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live

sorry pepo ive been dead.but im back live and kicking now. ok ive been clubbing twice in less than 5 days and fell sick. but of cause. anyhoo, here's some pictures.

at attica

casey and howie

bren and i

case and i looking horribly blotchy

at zouk

emykins and i

some random days with brendan. (:

some time spent at my bestest chidhood friend's house. the kiwi and teh aussie.

thats about it for now. bev's coming in 1 day. cant wait.

1:49 a.m. - 2006-12-19

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CROWN.

ok so many things to talk about but im lazy so i'll just talk about last night.

just ta let you know, i went to the country and back. i love the country. love the long drives, the free and easy life and being treated like a princess. whoah i swear my parents are spoiling me. ive dont soooo much shopping ive never done in my life in one holiday and i have more to come tomorrow. i have at least a luggage full of new stuff. ok maybe not but close to it and im shopping tomorrow again. mum's been spoiling me, buying me everything i try on and i touch. my parents go aaaaaall the way out just to please me even in the country when we were driving, they went around specially to look for horse riding coz i ALWAYS go horse riding on holidays. cept in asian countries. and ive only been to 3 asian countries for holiday. i love europe. (: everyone does. anyway, yeah i feel so bad that my parents always try to meet my requests. ezpecially this round.

anyway, last night, my dad took me to crown. just the 2 of us. the security guard asked for my id and i was like hell yeah in your face bitch! ok i didnt really say that but i was laughing can i was thinking 'didnt think i was 18 did you? wrong loser!' hahaha anyway, dad gave me 400 bucks to blow in the casino. i know its not alot to some of you but you know, your chances are pretty low in casinos. so i didnt want anymore. i felt bad using it anyway. and he was like here, for your first time legally in the casino. anyway, he gave me 200 bucks for roulette, we both played that together and 200 bucks for black jack. dad and i were at the roulette table and were persistant with our numbers. our birthdates. the usual. but the only one that came out was my birthday. ahhah! anyway, we completely blew 200 bucks on roulette. i swear roulette is just a way of giving money to casinos. ):

anyway, we moved to the blackjack tables. 20 bucks per round. dad let me sit at the table and he stood behind me watching. he didnt even give me advice! well, i didnt really need it coz i was queen of blackjack. hahah thats right. i started playing since 10 for fun with boys only. grew up with them in sg and everytime our parents met up they'd gamble. which would be every weekend. they'd play poker and blackjack. so our parents teach us and lately, we've been playing together with the adults. and everytime i play with the boys i win. (: so back to my story, i was so scraed co the dealer had such good feng shui i was like shit. i won some and lost some and then my dad decided to leave me aaaaall alone for a smoke. wtf! all by myself at the blackjack table! i had no choice and i was scared as hell but after a while i was tapping the table for a card and swippinjg the air to pass. like a pro! hahaha i kept winning and winning while he was gone and he had to come back to ruin the feng shui. ): so in the end, i lost 35 bucks in black jack. anyway, it was fun. really fun but i dont intend to make it a habit. dad's not a gambler but when he can, he will. you could imagine what happened in vegas when we were that 2 years ago. i love vegas. more than LA.

ive been so happy these few days. not just coz of spending money coz im with my family. i feel like paris hilton and lindsay lohan. im as happy as a clam.

anyway, i'll talk more about my "holiday" in melbourne when i get to sg which is in 2 days!!!!! dont worry i wont bore you pepo i got some pictures and i'll make it short and snappy. for now, im gonna get to singapore and rock up in my trackies and tanks, show off my noe found tummy and dance like a Goddess. hah. modesty. who needs it?

11:12 p.m. - 2006-12-06

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MY PARENTS COME IN 2 HOURS.

7:45 a.m. - 2006-12-01

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i hate being fat.

ok so i just got back from my daily walk/run. its so frustrating exercising in public. i get at least 5 honks form sick old men and its not like i have a killer body or something. im fat ok. what the fuck are you sick old men honking at. must i wear a teletubie suit for people to leave me and my fat workout alone? just leave fat people alone ok. bastards. anyway, ive been bad. i had a soft serve last night. then when i got back. em and i shared a bag of red rock deli. and only did 120 situps. i deserve to be fat. my own will to be a fat slob lard obese chubby pudgy chunky round bulbus bollus rollie pollie stubby whatever. just fat ok. i felt a layer of fat surround my thighs and arms and a pot forming but did i stop? NOOOOOOO. im asking to be fat. i want to be fat. why? coz fat people are cool. fat people are models. fat people can fit into size 4 jeans. fat people can dance. fat people dont smell funny. fat people have a lot of admirers. fat people are hot.

fat people are models.

models for mothercare.

bloody hell i really hate being fatl i hate the fatty acids and glycerol and whatever adds to unnecessary weight to my body. i really want gastric bypass surgery.

sometimes i want to just give up and accept the fact that im curvy and voluptous and that how its gonna be. then i look in the mirror and realize that not, im not curvy and voluptous, im fat and stubby. curvy and voluptous is just a nice way of saying fat and stubby. or describing beyonce. im gonna keep trying to loose this excess body weight untill i get married and when im married i wont give a fuck coz im already married and too bad for my husband if he hates fat women coz he'll have to deal with it. HAHA! then again i'll feel so depresed coz some lucky bitches still look hot after 5 kids. i dont even have a kid and i look like im in the midst of the "putting on weight for my child coz it needs food" stage. i swear when i have kids, hopefully just one, after pregnancy, i'll still look like i have a baby in there if i unfortunately have 2, its just gonna pile up and im gonna be bed ridden. my arms are gonna be so fat that it constantly looks raised when im not raising my hand. my belly will loop over my vagina so my husband will have a hard time looking for it if he wants sex which will make him burn more calories. my thighs will be constantly touching so it will be physically impossible to get his penis in there. he'll have to roll me around if he want doggy coz i will be physically unable to do so. and i cant and wont have to get on my knees coz my thighs and calves will be in the way so i cant bend my knees and i'd be lying on my belly which will cause me to be raised. i'll have cellulites on my cellulites and fat on my fats. this is what will happen to me when i get pregnant. and i wont even have to do much. just get pregnant. sucks being fat.

anyway, im going away to brood over my fatness.

to hell with you all you hot skinny people! i hope something bad happens to you all!

2:23 p.m. - 2006-11-30

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special 2

And we will only need each other
we'll bleed together
Our hands would not be taught to hold another's
When we were the special two.
And we could only see each other
we'd bleed together
These arms will not be taught to need another
Cause we were the special two.

4:05 p.m. - 2006-11-29

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photoshop

hello people! i have a new hobby.
PHOTOSHOP
its so fun! em ust taught me the basics and its already so fun. omg im socool. hahaha. so guy if i come up with some funky excuse for not hanging out, clubbing or partying, you know what i'll be doin. (: just to prove my skills, i'll show you some that ive done. its not much i just do filters and adjust colour. that all i know so far but i'll get better! soon you cant tell who's who anymore! then i can fake my fatness. (:

this is my favourite. (:

omg we should be on a magazine. haha. no seriously.

coolio mah boy.

this one's nice.

HAHAHAHAHAH omfg look at bev's face. hotstuff. looking young and looking good. HAHAHAHA. its ok bev we all know your actually really hot.